Dissapointment in the making

Day 37

I made again, a stupid mistake of not writing on time due to me being tired as hell.  This is the second time it happens and basically back-to-back to my first failure and now I’m a bit mad at myself for it.  I know this is a stupid project but nevertheless I expect it to be something I can do, every day for a whole year.

You see, in the last few years, being engaged for a long time has been a struggle for me because I always find an excuse of something better out there, that’s why I take forever to finish a game and my backlog keeps growing, that’s why I start a book and leave it unfinished, that’s why I buy my art books and don’t touch it in forever and it is very frustrating to say the least.

Yes, many times I try to do a lot of things at the same time: being efficient at work, read a book, play a game, go to CrossFit on the regular, study languages, write my blog, watch TV or a good movie, be socially active, etc. and the hours of the day are not enough for all of that but I’ve always struggle a bit to decide, outside of work, what are the most important things out of my non-important things I do.

That’s why writing the blog daily and keeping up with one German class a day is important to me, because I can prove myself to be committed to something on the long run and I feel that I does have repercussions on things I want to do or try in the future like intermittent fasting or something along the lines of long-term commitment.

Anyways, I’ll make sure it won’t happen again.  I hate disappointing myself.

Sad/Frustrated just like that time I found only ONE avocado on a tree


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